First, sorry for my bad english grammar, I am from Europe... you will understand what I wanted to say :)
I am true proof that curing all types of LGBT ilnes is possible because I passed trought almost all phases!
Firstly, in my childhood I was wearing clothes of my mother when parents was outside, every time it was harder to stop and I wanted more, in my private space I was crossdresser, after I become teenager I considered that I am Transgender (lesbian women),I wanted to change my gender(but I didn't),I dreamed of it all time,when I masturbate I imagined myself as girl (autogynephilia), after some time I started to like shemales,and I also became shemale, until that I liked only girls, but after that I first started to eat my own sperm, than I wanted to suck c*cks to other men,It made me feel more feminine, I also wanted to be fu*ked in a*s,(so I becomed gay/hetero women), and after some time I become obsessed with penises and sex(but I have never had sex with man, only with toys), all this started rapidly to grow, my only toughts was penis in my mouth, new women clothes, and every day new evil things... it is addiction like drug, every time you need more, until you
reach deadly dose.When I realized that, I started to search for
help. I found stories very similar to mine, just like I wrote that
stories. Those addictions ruined so many lives, and people usually
committs suicide. I am also religious man, but I always tought that I
will stop with this when I get girlfriend,when I get merried, when I see
how it is to be women... nothing helped... When I came near to deadly
dose, I realised that I didn't become women, regular women wouldn't
behave like me, she would disgused with everything I do. I remembered
what was my primary aim, it was to become women. After all I passed I
realised that I will never be real women, I will just prettend that I am
women, the true is that I would be just some gay man, who wears women
clothes, and looks like ugly sluty bitch. In that case I will lose all
of my family ,children, old friends, job, heaven(did I mention that I
belive in God)... I didn't want that , so I made finally decision. I
will stop crossdress, stop all negative(sex) thoughts, live as man. I
also tried hypnosis , it helped a lot. I was saying to myself all time
"I am man", "I was women who wanted be a man, and I am become man, and I
am happy", "co*ks are disgusting"... I also prayed and meditated a lot.
If I remember that I want to be girl, I think that if I would be good,
God could make me women in heaven, so I tricks my own brain very easy
:). I started to behave like man, also stop to wear unisex clothes, because
it reminds me on girly past. I had urges when I sow girly clothes, but I
didn't let it defeat me, so I didn't wear any of girl clothes. If your
mind says "Try just this time", DON'T do that, if you do that exception,
it will start again... so kill that thoughts it in the root.
Now I
can say that I am cured, I have "girly" thoughts very rarely, I made
life tasks for my success that I want to achieve and I work on it, I am
happier than ever, I can grow spiritualy, I fell clean... it was like
rebirth.
If you want to stop crossdressing ,stop womenly/gay toughts, or you are tired of "wrong body" felling, losing your family, your life... this is right place. Lot of people are now CURED, and you can be CURED TO!!! All desires will NOT wanish , but after some time they will be very easy to control. So don't give up!
-Whatever you do to your body (cosmetics, surgery, hormones) you will never be real women!
-If you were weak kid in childhood and you friends didn't accepted you ,or you had some other trauma in childhood, that's not mean taht you are supoused to be girl!
-If you see yourself like pretty women pleasing her husband constantly, I will tell you the TRUTH: That is just your sexual fantasy about women you wanted to have, but because you can't have it, your mind tricks you and now you think that you want to be that women... real women don't like to be treated like that, real women don't like to wear sexy things constantly, don't like to have sex very often, real women don't want to be treated like slaves... it is yust your sexual fantasy!!!
-Whatever you do, after some time you will understand that you are just enyoying acting like women, you will never be like real one. You can't fell how is to be pregnant, have children, have love and patience like women, you can't have menstruation, you can't fell PMS... if you taking hormons, you will never feel like real women when hormons go up and down, you will be still man who regulary taking hormons and acting like women.
-Taking hormones can have very bad side effects like cancer, heart dissises, your body will stop to produce natural hormones and when you get old you will be like fat pig with osteoporosis...
-You will lose your family, your gay friends will like you while you are young, but after that you will be alone, have you ever asked yourself why is so suicids in LGBT population?
-If you were weak kid in childhood and you friends didn't accepted you ,or you had some other trauma in childhood, that's not mean taht you are supoused to be girl!
-If you see yourself like pretty women pleasing her husband constantly, I will tell you the TRUTH: That is just your sexual fantasy about women you wanted to have, but because you can't have it, your mind tricks you and now you think that you want to be that women... real women don't like to be treated like that, real women don't like to wear sexy things constantly, don't like to have sex very often, real women don't want to be treated like slaves... it is yust your sexual fantasy!!!
-Whatever you do, after some time you will understand that you are just enyoying acting like women, you will never be like real one. You can't fell how is to be pregnant, have children, have love and patience like women, you can't have menstruation, you can't fell PMS... if you taking hormons, you will never feel like real women when hormons go up and down, you will be still man who regulary taking hormons and acting like women.
-Taking hormones can have very bad side effects like cancer, heart dissises, your body will stop to produce natural hormones and when you get old you will be like fat pig with osteoporosis...
-You will lose your family, your gay friends will like you while you are young, but after that you will be alone, have you ever asked yourself why is so suicids in LGBT population?
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Thank you for sharing your story! May I ask how old you are and how long has it been since you felt "cured?" I personally don't expect my crossdressing desires to ever fully go away, though they have gone away to a large extent. So I'm not sure I would say I have been cured, but rather that I'm not living in the addiction any longer.
ReplyDeleteI am very glad that someone is following my blog, especially because I made it a few days ago :) I feel cured for abount month. When I remember how I felt before, this state is more than cured. Before "enlightment" my mind was more than feminine, when I thought I heard myself in girly voice, I wanted to do girly things all time, in my mind I had pussy between my legs, I wanted to fu*ked, the list is very long... now I feel totally like some other person, sometimes I feel some desires when I see sexy girl, but now I trained my mind just to watch, enjoy and think "It would be good sex with her(but I wouldn't cheet my wife)"(or I just turn my head somewhere else and don't think anything) instead of "I want to be her" or "I want to have clothes/body like her". I think that that is my natural state, because somewhere in my past(pubertity) my mind replaced "be WITH her" with "be her" because I couldn't "be with her"(I was shy, non dominant, I was crossdressing in my house...), so now I am just puting thoughts in natural place and replacing "want to be her" with "want to be WITH her". Throught the years I realised how painfull is to be women (pregnacy, menstruation, headaces, depilation, housework, diet, dirty husband...) so now also remember those things when I have some feminine desires. Now I am near thirty years and I have beatiful wife which I love so much(I thought that getting married will stop my desires, it helps , but you have to do more brainwork to say stop), she knows I like feminine things but she don't know about "other" things(if she would know that, she would run far from me... regardless I have never be with other man/women(I just played with toys,porns, clothes...)). Now I see how difficult is to be real women, and I think that if I would become women than maybe I would want to be man, so I think that there is too much things that prevent me to get back to crossdressing or any other LGBT thing. I started to write this blog because I want to have place to go if I ever forget reasons why I initially stoped crossdressing :)
DeleteI recommed you to try hypnosis, I will try to catch some time to create selfhypno session for converting from female to male, and I will post it. I feel very manly after hypnosis. I feel like real alfa male :D. Also sometimes I close my eyes and think that I am woman who realy realy wants to be man, than I open my eyes and "realize" that I became real man, it is very good feeling :D
I looked at your hypnosis links, and personally thought they were pretty silly (not trying to offend you), but maybe they actually help you.
DeleteSecondly, I'm glad to follow your blog, and looking forward to new posts. Thank you for starting it!
Third, I would be careful with the usage of the word "cure." When crossdressers hear the word cure they interpret that to mean you'll never have a desire to crossdress again, which I think is very unrealistic. I think for you "cure" means you no longer are being controlled by crossdressing, and have learned how to resist desires for it, and you are so much happier now, and so on. But people will see that word "cure" and interpret it incorrectly. So just make sure you define it as you use it so people don't get the wrong idea, and then they will call you naive. Just warning you :)
Hypnosis video is silly to you because you are not trained to fall in trance... I listened feminisation hypnosis before and I must admit that it is very dangerous and it can change your mind if you want that, now I am just doing opposite thing, and it also works(because I traines myself to fall into real trance). And this is advice for everyone: DON'T EVER LISTEN EROTIC HYPNOSIS, you will became sissy faggot very soon... even if you are thinking that you are very manly and 100% hetero... it is very hard to get back, it is possible but it is... very hard :(
DeleteI agree that "cure" is not good word because I felt really bad urges several times, especially in moments when I was alone at home for long period time with all wife's clothes near me... it was very hard to resist, but I also felt a lot of periods that I felt really cured.
A large percentage of young male cross-dressers experience depression but it's not caused by hiding their fetish.
ReplyDeleteYour brain is hard-wired to release dopamine and other neurotransmitters when you feminize yourself. These neurotransmitters produce sensations of well-being, pleasure, sexual gratification and bonding. It's just as if your brain interprets cross-dressing for actual contact with a female. You are using objects as a substitute for human intimacy. It affects the reward centers of your brain and produces instant gratification and, it mimics the addiction response.
If you just do the same thing over and over and over, then your brain fatigues and produces less dopamine. In order to achieve high levels of neurotransmitters you push the envelope, take greater risks, and go further with your fetish. Actually you don't love cross-dressing, you love the neurotransmitters and you are just using cross-dressing as the tool to get your brain to release them.
The majority of cross-dressers are normal, healthy, heterosexual men with one little kink hard-wired in their brain. It is unfortunate that they focus so much time and energy on their fetish. At this point in your development you should be working hard at developing your social skills and self-esteem. Join clubs and other social organizations. Perform charitable work. Serve those less fortunate than yourself. Socialize and go to parties. Learn how to tell jokes. Learn how to dance, really well. Learn how to hold conversations with others, talking about their interests. Date lots of girls. Date girls who never ever get asked on dates, just to develop your social skills. Tell girls you think they are wonderful and just leave it at that. Spend less time alone at home nursing your fetish.
By doing this I think you'll learn that there are opportunities in life that are more important than cross-dressing, and this will help relieve your depression.